Who Am I?

The end of the academic year approaches and my seniors are excited at the prospect of entering “the real world”, but also apprehensive in some cases.  Being in their parents’ home and having their days all planned and scheduled for the past 12 years has them wondering who they are now.  At some point in all our lives, or perhaps at many points, we ask the same question, “Who am I now?”” At times like these, we are looking beyond the superficial, beyond our names and the names of the cities and states we came from, into the layers beneath our surface identities. We feel the need for a deeper sense of purpose in our lives, or we may be ready to accommodate a more complex understanding of the situation in which we find ourselves. Whatever the case, the question of who we are is a seed that can bear much fruit.
This questioning can send us on an exploration of our particular giftedness, of our dreams, of our deep vocation in God’s dream of who He wants us to become.  It can call us to take up new ways of meditating or journaling in order to discover that voice deep within us that seems to know the answers to our multitude of questions. It can draw our attention so deeply inward that we find the spark of Spirit that connects us to every living thing in the universe. One Hindu tradition counsels its practitioners to ask the question over and over, using it as a mantra to lead them inevitably into the heart of the divine.
While there are people who seem to come into this world knowing exactly who they are and why they are here, for the most part the human journey appears to be very much about asking this question and allowing its answers to guide us. So when we find ourselves in the heart of unknowing, we can have faith that we are in a very human place, as well as a very divine one. “”Who am I?” is a timeless mantra, a Zen koan ultimately designed to lead us home, into the part of our minds that finally lets go of questions and answers and finds instead the ability to simply be.

Advertisements

About frmichelrcc

I have a degree in religious studies from the University of Wisconsin, did graduate work in theology at St. Norbert College, De Pere, Wisconsin, and also at St. Paul's University in Ottawa. I have been a Benedictine since I first professed as an oblate in 1982, making final profession in 2009. I have worked as vocations director in a large diocese in the mid-west and am a spiritual director in the Benedictine tradition. I have 3 sons, one of whom is now in God's loving embrace in eternity, and 2 grandsons, Bradley and Jacob.
This entry was posted in Becoming "Church". Bookmark the permalink.

Leave a Reply

Fill in your details below or click an icon to log in:

WordPress.com Logo

You are commenting using your WordPress.com account. Log Out / Change )

Twitter picture

You are commenting using your Twitter account. Log Out / Change )

Facebook photo

You are commenting using your Facebook account. Log Out / Change )

Google+ photo

You are commenting using your Google+ account. Log Out / Change )

Connecting to %s